Insha Allah in this post I would like to write about Mujhee's surgery to remove her tonsils. Alhamdulillah, I was glad that her tonsils has finally been removed last Monday (04/10/2010). We came in the PMH at 6:45 am and it was not until 7:15 that the admission nurse called us in. After registering we were sent to day surgery department at level 6.
Mujhee had her pre-surgery examination while an anaesthetic doctor also checked in on her. I changed her clothes and put on her pink pyjamas. She was so calm unlike the night before. The ENT doctors came in and asked me to sign the consent form for the removing of the tonsils. We were told by one of the ENT doctors that she will be the first.
The night before thesurgery she was distressed and sleepless. I told her to sleep early because tomorrow will be a big day for her. Her sisters kisses her and wish her a success surgery. I carried her to her sisters room as she didn't stop crying. Her sisters tried calm her down with words of comfort. Maybe she was scared of the surgery.
Kay said, "It's ok Mujhee. You can do it because you are strong". She also said, "You won't feel anything because they will put you to sleep".
Then Neefah said, " There's nothing to be worried about Mujhee. You won't feel a thing. They'll put you to sleep and everything should be okay. You're a brave girl Mujhee, you've done this a lot of times before. You'll be fine Mujhee."
Before Tas went to sleep she kiss Mujhee and said, "Don't cry Mujhee because you are a strong girl".
Soon after that she fell asleep.
As the doctor left I started feeling nervous. I talked to Mujhee to calm me down. I said to her the insha Allah everything will be alright and I will see her first at the recovery room. I am so afraid something will go wrong and started to get teary. I said istigfar as the negative thought came into my mind. I recited the three Quls surah and wiped all over Mujhee's head and body for Allah's protection of any harm before the surgery. I aslo whispered to her the shahadah, Muslim's testimony of faith. Let it be the last words she heard before she lost her conscience.
Suddenly I remember the words that Mujhee's father loves to say. حَسْبُنَا اللَّهُ وَنِعْمَ الْوَكِيلُ
which means, "Allah (Alone) is Sufficient for us, and He is the Best disposer of affairs (for us). ( سورة آل عمران , Ali Imran, Chapter #3, Verse #173). This words certainly pushed my nervous away, alhamdulillah.
It was 8:30 when we walked into the theater. The hardest part was to leave Mujhee by her self after she lost her conscience. Every time I left her in the theater I always have the thought that I will never know whether I will ever get to see her again after that. I will always be aware that, it can be our last time together. Oh well it was never easy. It made me feels how small I am for not be able to do anything except give all my trust to Almighty Allah. La haula wala quwwata illah billah - Indeed all power and might belong to Him.
At 11:00 am I was brought to PICU to meet Mujhee. Alhamdulillah, it was a relief when I saw her. But she was so distressed and her breathing was louder than before. All the wires that attached to her made her more uncomfortable. I wished I could hold her in my arms to make her comfortable. Alhamdulillah, she settled down after being given oxycodaine. I sit by her bed and wait until she woke up at 5:00 pm when I got to hold her and gave her my big cuddle. The cuddle that made her feel secure. The whole afternoon she was fine. She was fine until I went home. At around 10:30 pm her father called me from the hospital to tell me that Mujhe has been unsettled. I said to him that maybe she is tired and wanted sleep.
The next morning I visited Mujhee. Her father told me that she woke up at 12 midnight and 4 am. It was normal because she usually wakes up at that time for re-positioning. So there is nothing for us to be worried about except her breathing was still extremely loud that morning. So the doctor decided to keep her for another night in a ward and gave her steroid to reduce the swell that cause loud breathing. After noon we went to ward 5C. Alhamdulillah, she was well the whole day, I was with her in her bed. Once a while I hold her in my arms, which she liked so much. That afternoon her sisters came in. Mujhee was happy to have her sisters visit.
Alhamdulillah although she didn't sleep well that night, her breathing is much better. I was happy that she was allowed home that morning.
Being at home is much better than in the hospital. She is recovering well, alhamdulilah. At home she was on antibiotic and panadol for few days. She stays home instead go to school because she was advised to rest at home for 10 days. A couple of days after came back from hospital, her breathing was still so loud and she felt uncomfortable inside her throat. She only settled down when I held her in my arms. I am so grateful that her father and sister, Hani can take turn holding her. She was only better in a sitting position, even when she is sleeping so she ended fall asleep on the reclining chair.
As I write this, she is sleeping in her own bed in her room. Her breathing is normal and free of any medications. Alhamdulillah everything went well.